Connection had been down for the past few days, have to mooch on the neighbors wi-fi. Worst idea ever internet drops in and out every few minutes.
arjgaoetjothjaogjagoaitjeothjaetha I refuse to rewrite this (copy and paste deserve more love)
Posts up soon when connection isn’t dumb as eff -_-;
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Paul Cao
ENG 303
Edlund
ReflectionAs a student, I have written countless papers for classes some which have been met with high praise and some; well let’s just say not so much. I would consider myself a struggling writer. I am completely aware that my writing is competent and that I CAN produce a very well written paper, but when it comes to my paper being looked at and reviewed by others I have no confidence what so ever. I fear being critiqued. The constant struggle to want to put my work out there for people to see yet not wanting feedback dumbfounds me. I have my ups and downs with writing. Until the day that I can overcome this, I don’t think my writing will reach its full potential. I feel as though this class can be the thing I need, if I decide to let my fears drown out.
I think the reason why I have become a lacking writer, is because of always doubting myself. I’m a person who likes to play it safe and try to take the least amount of risks because of past experiences. I never use to care about what people thought my writing until I had hit my first year of college. My skills were lacking and due to that I was placed in what I would call “remedial” English class. As a student in that class I spit out paper after paper and was met with high reviews from my professor even though I never took the class seriously. I never cared until the first peer review in which my paper had a few punctuation and grammar errors but overall, my classmates enjoyed my piece on “The Necessity of Literature”. I remember how after that I would want to impress my classmates and professor with my knowledge in diction and how well I would understand my subject. My ego grew as a person and writing because I had something that I had a knack at.
Then one day I got a review in which my final paper (1st draft) was ripped to shreds by my fellow group members, the topic was; Why Euthanasia Should be Legalized. I was told it lacked sources and that my writing was not as well done as my other essays and works had been. It created a lot of doubt after that and even with the second draft I did, it was never given the same lean way as my other papers. I think this was the starting point in which I began doubting myself and even though I was still writing well in my other lower division English classes, the one thing I began to fear was the idea of my paper being attacked by other writers (there was always that one person in class that would). It may be a silly thing to be scared of but it was what held me back for a long time.
When someone gets a negative feedback from a friend or colleague, it can be said that some take it to heart and try to do better to prevent that from happening again. Sometimes it can be taken it really hard. Feedback is there to help a person understand what they need to do to improve them so that they can be a better person, or in this case a writer. If fear controls you, then one will never take a risk because the idea of what people think. It is not about what other people think but merely, what one thinks of them.
This past spring I began writing again for my personal enjoyment. I created my own blog on Tumblr, and used that as an outlet to let my close friends see some of my writing and who I really was in order to let myself gain confidence in myself. I began to write a lot and showed them to some close friends for personal opinion. I can honestly say that it has helped and also because some professors have been trying to encourage me not to worry so much. It can be said that as much positive reinforcement I have been receiving, stubbornness and being unconfident is the biggest factor. I know that eventually there will come a point when I need to stop caring but I guess until lightning strikes, it’s going to by one day at a time.
As someone that loves writing, I want to write to impress others with my knowledge and skill I want to be able to make a reader put down what they read and be in awe that what they read was a brilliant piece of writing. That moment of euphoria of knowing that I reached a reader is the best feeling I can ever receive. If there is a reason why I love writing so much it’s probably because of reading. I was always reading when I was younger and thus my imagination and my ideas for stories comes from books and my own imagination. I was given a strict Asian mother who made me go to private school in order to learn grammar and college English in high school, even though I got the fundamentals I was able to excel when I reached college. Not only was I given that I was told to write ten words out of the dictionary every weekend and thus my choice of words are sometimes superior choices for what I write, though not always.
I do apologize for this paper being so late but I think that if I can pick up a notch and get as much feedback as possible I will be able to excel in more ways than one and be able to publish more things online cause the way for people to see this is through online. I hope that my skill as a writer can only go through the roof from here. I have A LOT to offer the world.
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Wow these words speaks volumes to me
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